I'm a dragon (Online~)
I like dragonites (I say dergonites). I am one.
Dragon Knight sounds like Dragonite, so there's that.
I use tumblr, but mainly to posting, not the kind of person to spend an entire night reblogging.
I love to use twitter and post silly stuff, but noone cares~
I feel I'm on the strange position of feeling that many want or require my attention, but very few dare to ask for it, for some reason.
Ppl think that 'having lots of contacts on Steam' equals to "popularity". For me it's rather a matter of neccesity and I don't have many real friends in any case.
I tend to dissapoint ppl, as others place unrealistic expectations on me.
I have access to a lot of info I can't and won't disclose
I like to poke noses.
You can say dragons don't squee or purr, but I do. Because it's cute, and I like it.
I like to seem innocent. So ppl don't mass bother me with irrelevant 'needs'.
I'm demi-asexual (so far), but almost noone knows what's that and fail to respect my own tempo~.
I like to make others happy, even if that means me not being happy. If I can do it, and doesn't affect me badly, I might do it.
I made a lot of mistakes related to social stuff in the past. But I learn and I keep learning. I'd rather make mistakes and learn from them than not and never learning.
I love logical answers, specially those related to ethics or other persons.
Sometimes I end up lying (As a white lie) just to avoid conflicts and unneeded problems. Or even to make others feel better. So much for the good things~.
It's impossible to be 'a saint'. Those that think "I am" often get dissapointed for no reason.
I like to be random and silly to friends. But I am really serious when dealing with serious stuff (Mostly~).
Finding a balance between conflict and peace is important~
I usually rely on the kindness of others to achieve certain things.
I like to be kind myself, but I'm not really into the position of giving away things.
I live in a shitty third world countrywith a pseudo communism as goverment. I can't buy U$S or do normal purchases online, so normally I can't afford anything outside of what I have already.
I tend to treat first world users as superior socially & mentally.
I get jealous often, specially towards others that are better than me on what I want to do, but I hardly ever mention it.
My study career is relatedo to technical sound, but I haven't made any song and didn't attempt either. Probably I would end up sucking anyways.
I could draw if I tryhard enough.
I'm a lazy butt dragon, I don't tryhard enough.
I have trouble to achieve stuffs if there's noone that can encourage me to do it.
Ppl may say otherwise, but I have few "real friends" that seek my contact often.
I'm way too shy (really) to engage casually in voice chats, specially since I'm not native english speaker and I always afraid of making a bad impression.
I actually have a silly voice and I can be some sort of voice actor.
I get nervous on voice chats even, so I don't know what to say, I either stay quiet or not and say stupid stuff that may or may not end up putting off ppl.
I don't have any valid 'group of friends' whose I can actually gather and play casually games together. I just have scattered friends. Yep.
I gain confidence and trust extremely quickly on those that I feel some affinity towards to. As such I treat those I do as best friends often. Which may or may not creep out others off.
My english is not perfect, thank you very much.
I am not entirely sure if I ever felt 'real love' in the traditional sense, and not just on my own weird way that I don't even understand.
Irrational and illogical decisions are not my forte.
I actually spent a lot of time writing this, and I don't have high hopes someone would read through this mess, other than those that have some kind of interest on me, or just plain out curious. Congratulations.
Sometimes I think too much, overthinking may be a problem.
If I don't feel some affinity towards someone, it would be harder for me to stablish a constant interest on that person, unless they do some effort to make it.
I may or may not overreact at all, everytime I do and realise it, I do my best to avoid doing it again, whenever possible.
I'm like a different person when dealing with issues related to my work. Might be because I'm not assuming my own persona but something more serious.
My character represents my personality, I like be joyful online because I can. But I'm really shy and quiet IRL.
I like ponies and my favorite one is Fluttershy. She's like me~
I helped or indirectly helped to make extremely good friendships and bonds on Steam. I enjoy knowing that I help others. But I hardly get help in the way I really need, and often that 'help' would just make things worse
I often agree with others just to be more friendly. Doesn't mean I really 'agree' with their thoughts. But it's better to not assume a conflicting position, for someone that wants to know more about others and make more friends.
Yes I like making friends, but for different reasons, others just don't catch up and don't make an effort to keep my attention, or I don't do enough effort in keeping their attention
The possibilities of me actively pursuing a friendship (Or relationship, if only...) highly depends on how much affinity I get with someone. And that depends on if I feel we have lots of stuff in common. Otherwise the other must 'show that they're interesting' which hardly ever happens, because everyone have their ego, and I just can't simply 'risk' with someone I don't know we will get along in the first place.
I can be end up being 'pushy' and others can be 'pushy' with me. I don't generally complain when others do that to me, and if others don't complain that I'm being pushy, often I don't realise it.
I have trouble realising certain stuff from others if they don't show indirect messages that I can recognise. I do what I know about, and what I don't know, I don't.
I don't have real 'deviations' (Fetishes). And I don't really like that others attempt me to like their own 'kinks'.
I don't enjoy those that are on a RP world, or are in a permanent status of "being lewd". I'd end up avoiding those in the long term.
I actually can roleplay, but that highly depends on my liking of others, my mood and if I have time. Often that translates on something short which I do mostly to make others happy. Doesn't neccesarely means that I particularly enjoy that.
I may or may not have repeated myself several times here.
I don't do "naughty stuff" IRL with myself ever. I think you know what I mean.
I dislike those that engage in circlejerks and don't have an open mind to accept another person like me. I don't really do that on my own, tho if I perceive that someone have nothing at all to do with me, I will likely just ignore or wait to see if it's someone worth my time.
Real friendship trust for me is not gained easily, despite all. I might like and 'trust' someone, but the real 'clicking' of me attempting a permanent contact depends on if I see that initial level of interest, and I feel the same.
I make mental images out of someone the first time I met them. That includes nickname and avatar (Icon). If it's something that on my mind I like, enjoy or agree with, chances are I will get along better and or accept the person on my own personal terms, (Despite that being silly and or stupid). As such the more unique and interesting one is towards my interests, such as DRAGONS, the more likely I am to have a permanent interest.
Due to my weird value of 'love' I may or may not place a biased focus on economic, political or personal interest factors on others. Such things I practically never disclose, and actually are on my subconscious, but I may or may not notice it.
Being 'relevant' is important to me. It still may be related to my weird points of view related to, you know.
I like dragons, a lot.
Did I say I like to be random and or funny also? I might also end up boring and or uninteresting for whatever reason.
I'm always afraid of making a bad impression. And for the other way, the only main reason to make a 'bad impression' on me is by inmediately pushing me towards things I don't like nor share.
I don't hold grudges, I forgive others very easily. But that highly depends on the will of others to seek pardon than on me.
If someone says that I made a mistake, I would need to see it. I won't 'say I'm sorry' if I have no legit reasons for it.
I hate corruption. I have my own moral standards which may or may not sound higher than the average.
Even after all, I still don't know all the facts about me, and I probably won't be able to name them all until they come into my head when thinking about the facts about me.
As such, the most common way I have to get to know others, and allow others to get to know me, is by asking questions. Usually let them asking about me and I asking about them. I'm often bad at convs so that works for me.
That also might piss off or turn off some ppl, in that case it depends on interest.
Once "I break the ice" things get easier.
I may or may not have end up being 'desperate' for certain level of affection in the past, which may or may have not be fullfilled by lying to myself.
I technically have low confidence on myself, and I may be on a state of hidden depression, which hardly ever shows up because I take pills that work.
I technically don't have many reasons to be happy. I am, because I am made to. It doesn't mean that on the inside I'm a deep, lonely, thinking person that just want to help because doesn't feel better about himself.
I'll say it again, I don't follow nor enjoy irrational points of view, that aren't really justified in some way. Tho if I have to follow them to avoid issues, I will.
I fall asleep quickly and easily, and I often have vivid dreams.
I actually have a really high creative drive on my mind, often having beautiful ideas when not hooked onto something.
Which means that I get dry if I'm already doing something such as being on the PC.
I don't really go outside on my own. I don't have a group of friends for it, and I don't have reasons for it.
I like artwork way more than gifts that I can't share. As such I prefer art over any game. If you want to gift me something for any reason, I want it to be art. I love to share and see others enjoy my character, and sharing is not really possible with games.
"Internet friends" are mainly the best friends I have.
I still miss certain friends I am technically no longer with, such as some blue pony and a salad fan.
Everything related to the Steam community, specially the responsibilities I assumed when creating certain group and SR, has allowed me to mentally and socially grow. Commpared to myself 4 years ago, I'm a lot different.
I was bullied alot and isolated socially at schoo, and even on some parts of college. As such I came in with a big ignorance related to social skills. In the end was my will to know about others and making mistakes what made me a better person, and I'm willing to keep doing that.
The more I understand about things, the more likely I am to be more complicated with myself.
I can't keep writing facts because it's late and I don't want trouble. Yes I live with my parents still.
I missed many facts, there's never enough time for it, and I still have ideas. I am sorry, but if you're interested you'd have to try and get to know me~
The spacing here is not ideal and may seem cluttered, I'm totally sorry again, but it's better for me to stay as is.
PS; I might love you, in my own weird way~