Fake friends

This was posted somewhere and prompted  me to do a pasterino, but I'll just drop my own thoughts instead.


Is a feeling I have; but exactly; what is a friend?

Certainly for me, the 'requirements' are just simple; talk to me, at least regularly. And that's all.

Is this view, a twisted one? Just because someone here, or anywhere, talks to me regularly, is a friend? Well, not really.
I do consider those friends; because, (At least for me) despite beliefs; not many talk to me.

You can argue, that the more ppl that you have access to, the more ppl would talk to you. Nono, that depends entirely on how 'interesting' you are. Apparently, certain things affect if ppl are 'interested on you' and those rely mostly on their exact 'interest'.

On art sites,  for instance, if you're not 'an artist' or content creator, you won't attract ppl ('suckups')

Granted; if you don't contribute at all to a community, you can't expect to be noticed, do you?

Let's put it on simpler words; if you don't have relevance, you'll have a harder time in getting ppl to get in contact to you on your own.

Where am I going? I don't know, I'm just writing whatever comes up into my head.

Thing is, if you 'see' that I can get in touch with many ppl, doesn't mean that technically, those are 'my close friends' (Well, since my perception of 'friends' is easier...) .


Lately I began to tag 'friends' using a label of 'protection rings' (Those in computational terms that the kernel uses, idk)

Those that are in the ring 0, have "unrestricted access" (Which would be akin, that I would trust them basically anything), those that are on 1, are extremely close, and those that are on 2, very close.
And 3 would be anyone that's just my friend.

In total, there aren't more than 20 ppl. Sooooooooo, if you want to be my friend, and get close, it's just a matter of talking to me.
There aren't magical treats, nothing. Is not that "I'm filled", is just that, yes I get in touch with many ppl, but most aren't "close friends", just 'friends' in the sense that sometimes I get talked to. That's all.

For me; it has the sad result that I won't really notice someone unless I see they are interested on me, and not just random talk sometimes. If I notice that, I'll get quickly fond of you.

Yet, ultimately I ain't very interesting I suppose.  At least, on surface, because y'know, I have a lot to show, but if you don't try you can't know.
Most importantly, don't expect me to do the first step, I just can't. If you want to know me, just try it. I can't afford spending time onto something I don't know if something will come up from it, it's up to you.


and, ASDF I KNOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT I JUST WROTE; so I'll just write a final t;dr

"If you want to be a close friend of mine and be labeled as such, the only thing you have to do is to talk to me regularly, and be real. Not fake, not deceptive, but real. If I can't trust you, I will not grow fond of you, nor find a likeness on your persona.
If the first thing you do is to make me feel uncomfortable or think bad of you, you'd have to work towards removing that perception of you on me."

Are these 'instructions' on how to approach me?
Maybe? I don't know, at least that's how I'd approach myself. Because for some reason some ppl come up to me with certain assumptions, or 'expectations' and then find out I am different of those.
I am not "A serious ball" when with friends. I am not a 'insert thought here'. I'm just myself.
Does it mean that outside of those that know me, I have to assume a certain personality?
Of course! If I am serious, I am serious. If I need to be silly, I will. If I want to be silly, I will.
But, if I care for you, I will. I just have different ways to show it. I might be slightly different socially towards others, but that doesn't mean I won't share time with you, nor that I'm not suited for a relationship, I suppose.

Everyone can have a chance to be friends! Is just a matter of trying. I'd try it too, if I see it.
But don't expect me to go first!~