oh shuddup sjru

here's the thing, I don't give a damn about those I know that don't care for me. It's okay, we can't care for everyone, I get it, it's fine. We can just be friends and talk occasionally, there's absolutely no problem with that.

What I do have an issue with is THOSE I care, I talk regularly and still don't give a damn about me. I'm absolutely tired of lies; many just talk to me to get something and I'm fed up on that, really. Out of everyone I know, there might be about 20 that have some sort of interest on me, and less than 5 that seek to talk to me regularly.
And by regularly I mean NOT me starting the damn chat all the bloody time. I don't like to start chats, if I do is because I know that I'll have a good time doing a chat, but it doesn't always go like that.
"I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm busy" always something to 'just get away' from me. It's not even funny. If you don't like me or don't like to chat to me just be damn straight with it and tell me the truth.

One thing is being unable to care, like actually being busy etc... and other thing is deciding not to care, despite claiming otherwise.

I seen that a lot on my country, specially in politics. They say something, claim something, but they clearly do something else and then deny it. It's sick, it's not good, it's not natural, it's mostly evil. Some didn't realise their mistakes until it's too late, but even after knowing their errors they do nothing to fix them and keep stepping on the same rock, over, and over, and over again.
You can make a mistake once, that's normal, you can make a mistake twice, that's also normal, 3 times, 4 times, 5 times, but every time you make the same mistake, it becomes more and more about a choice and less than "just a mistake" (Unless you're mentally incapable of fixing it)

"blabla  shuddup sjru stop being emo"
I am not! I'm tired of the bs that everyone tries to pull off for me. I'm just disposable manure apparently, and I'm sick tired of being treated like that. Some years ago when I connected on Steam I actually had ppl wanting to chat with me for what I am.
And now? I connect, I get "help me" spam, ppl that just want to bother me etc.. I have to only get in on my alt to avoid that bs.  Don't get me wrong, I want to talk to ppl, but at the same time I don't want to just talk to those that 'want something out of me' and don't give a damn for me. I don't have unlimited time, at least not since I finished school and started college.

And on Skype? yes I'm jealous of those that I know that always have someone to chat with, friends to do voice etc and ppl that care for them. And me it's always just maybe one that would occasionally say hi, I reply and want to chat and then they go mute.
I'm not kidding, 8 of 10 times it happens like that.
maybe yeah, cuz they already have their own group of friends and I have no priority over them, so they could care less.
Stop it, if I have to poke someone everyday to at least get a hello or something then you clearly aren't interested in me, and I don't want excuses for anything.
Just be real, please. I'd rather get a delete or a block than just live in a lie. If you have 0 interest in being a good friend with me and 0 interest in caring and 0 interest on actually being with me, then just don't lie! It's not that hard. I'm wasting my time and probably yours also.

I'm not a drama llama like others that "Oh they deleted me, they blocked me, please everyone tell them I'm sorry" etc... I don't give a damn, if you don't like me well fine, just be real.

If you like me, well fine do some effort in showing you want to get to know me, I already have many that want to use me, be real and then I'll give you the same interest you give me.
I may or may not have said the things I just said before, I don't care.
I feel better by just writing them off.

So well yeah I won't 'connect' to Steam or skype until I get a reason for it again. I'm so fed up with all the bs everywhere.

And yes, I tried to 'make new friends' but everyone just seemed to have 'their own' circle of friends and couldn't care less if I tried to talk to them first, blah.